Yesterday was one of those days. The people on the bus were extremely wierd, weird isn't the word for it!
you kind of wonder if you got on the right bus or maybe the short bus, or maybe the short bus people or on the wrong bus
Then I went for my standby appointment at the foodstamp office so I could see if I qualify for foodstamps and health insurance until I get a new job. I got there at 6:30 along with about 20 other people who had an appointment for 7:00 AM as well. We found out that it could take all day before we got an interview to see if we qualify for benefits. So I sat down and waited, I should have brought a book! Luckily I was seen at 10:00 so that wasn't to bad. The interview was about 30 minutes of paperwork etc. I had a manilla envelope full of everything I needed. Everything except a copy of my birth certificate, which I could of sworn I had included with all my info. I was told I was approved and as soon as I brought back my birth certificate my benefits would be active. Not bad, actually. So I went home and brought back my birth certificate. There were so many people there that had just been laid off. Even though applying for government assistance can be kind of a blow to people who are used to doing well, you have to figure, it's only temporary, there are a ton of us in the same boat, and as much money as we pay each year in taxes to fund these programs we shouldn't feel bad about having to use them if an emergency arises. I think for many people waiting in the office for so long was good therapy becuase many got a chance to talk to others in the same position, so I saw lots of depressed and frustrated faces with smiles on them before long. The tough times have a way of challenging us, bringing us down to earth, and opens doors for great changes and a way to rebuild our lives. It's a good thing if you go about it all in the right way. I asked God for a challenge and I definitly got one. They say to be careful of what you ask for, but when I asked for it, I pretty much new what it might entail.
Then when I got home the second time, Nancy was very upset and feeling bad with a staph infection that was ginormous so we headed to the emergency room. The doc took one look at her and lanced the wound,
we won't go into detail, lets just say, she was in allot of pain, tried really hard not to scream and said fuck several times under her breath. She did good, she handled it well. She needs to work on her meditation so she can just go else where when painful situations arise. It works wonders, I keep telling her this! When we got home, Shannon was in a bad funk and so we had words and I went to my room before I said things I would really regret. Sometimes kids say the darndest things. lol! One thing I will not tolerate is rudeness and disrespect no matter what the age. I give her respect and I expect it back. Sometimes you look at you kids,
and go,"I know I taught them better! Oh well, we all have our moods. Shit happens.Other than that everything was good. But I was tired as hell by the time I finally got in bed. Yesterday I was feeling a bit overwhelmed and the wierdness on the bus and just being tired I was in a bit of a down mood. I mean I know everything is going to be fine. But when I looked for jobs online yesterday, everything sucked bigtime, and when I told the caseworker at foodstamps that I was hoping to get a job right away she said I shouldn't get my hopes out because the job market is so bad. But at least I have unemployment set up, foodstamps, and free health insurance for now, which doesn't leave with me with much money to play around with, but I am very greatful that I will have enough to pay my share of rent and bills until I do have a job. This morning when I looked for jobs online I was pleasantly surprised. So things are looking much better. Plus I got 232.00 in food stamps, not bad at all.
I am going to go spend time with the puppy she is begging for my attention. She is doing great by the way. Mary Jane, our lab, has been babying her, and playing momma. Right now she wants to play with the cats, she is starting to think that she might be a cat too. She is growing fast and is funny to watch. She thinks she is big and bad. She loves to play lol!
Shannon is on the way home, she had to take parenting classes that are required for her visitation and child support case. Tyler hasn't shown up for court or anything so who knows what he is up to but as long as she does everything the judge asked she will be fine, and come out on top.
Well, gotta run.
Hugs,
Maria
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