Awesome day!!!

It's a beautiful day out! I am going to work outside in the yard today and also clean out the storage room. It needs to be done before it starts getting hot.

I am also planning our garden and how I am going to divide up the back yard. I need part of it for the kids, part of it for the dogs, and the rest of it for the garden. I have been researching growing a garden here in Phoenix, what to grow and when. Even though it gets so hot in the summer there lots of great stuff you can grow. The fresh produce in the stores sucks these days and it's so expensive. So why pay for it when I can grow it, and produce something much more healthy and fresh? We had a nice garden in Georgia, and I really should have done this last year, but our lease was going to be up in November and I didn't know if we were going to stay here another year, but we are and I think we will live here for as long as we can. At least here we have room to grow food. I can have a nice herb garden as well. I am fed up with the side effects of prescriptions that are just as dangerous as the conditions they are suppose to cure. Sometimes you need to go to the doc, but there are times that it can do more harm than good. I am also going to start baking my own bread again. That crap in the store is getting worse and worse. So many health conditions that use to be an exception are now on the rise and that's because of all the processed shit we eat. Oh well you all know what's going on around us.

Other than that, I need to trim my hair and spring clean this week. unemployment has finally been approved so for now i can at least breathe and not stress to badly as I look for jobs. Cutting the stress also makes it easier to use this time to get stuff done spiritually. And I can work out more and write easier.

My ex and I are talking about getting back together, that would probably be a good thing. I think it would be and all the kids would be happy with that decision as well. Even though he is Mark and Elyse's dad and TJ, and the girls have a different dad, he was always so good with T.J. the girls cam after he and I split up and if I had been smarter we would never have split up. But shit happens, but we all grow and learn from our experiences. Of all the men I've ever known Jerry has always been the best, and he would be a great male role model for the grand kids as well as someone everyone would like and get along with. So Iam happy with the thought of getting back together with him, but before it happens I need to lose my weight and if i work hard enough it won't be too long. He is in Florida and I am in Arizona and we will need that time while I am losing weight to get to know each other again and decide if this is what we really want to do. Jerry has a way of showing up unexpectedly though so I I hope that doesn't happen for a few months anyway. lol! But then everything happens in it's own way and as it is supposed to happen.

Well gotta go,
Hugs,
Maria